Monday, December 26, 2011

thoughts before de new year...

My dream since I was younger:

To hold a yacht wedding at 28
To design my own house by 30
To carry my first boy by 31
To have 3 lovely kids before 35

Age and reality kicked in last night.
Where am I now?

My dream is simple. Yet difficult to realise. To be truthful, I haven't been happy lately. Work, family, relationship, health ain't too good. Did I make the wrong choices again? Is everything worth it?

I long for carefree days. Somewhat like karen. I wanna travel again. 2012. I pray for a much better year. No new year resolutions as usual. And ya, no major life decisions yet.

Peg, u help fulfil half my dream...I have my chubby lovable godson this year at least. :)

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Thursday, November 10, 2011

tiring

Getting tired fr overtime work everyday... Hope life gets better soon...

Wish I can migrate someday

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

RIP, asher

i am feeling depressed as i write this post...

my bf's nephew, asher, was born wed 27.10.11. today was the first time i met him. so cute. so handsome. but the meetup was at the wake. i can sense the sadness of the family, especially my bf. i felt really bad, as i ended work really late on thu & fri, & he missed visiting his newborn nephew at de hospital. we had planned to visit him on sun. news came on sat on his demise. after my bro's wedding 29.10.11.

what a shock. and a roller coaster week. 25-27-29-31 oct. he was so happy & excited to welcome his nephew then. my heart melt for him at the wake. i just feel .....

i really hope asher will continue to find joy as he parts to heaven... perhaps this is a better route meant to be.

RIP, asher

Thursday, September 8, 2011

canon photo printer

yeah i jus redeemed a compact canon photo printer from amex!!



i can use it to print my godson's pix
hope de fotos can brighten his mummy's life!

Monday, August 29, 2011

marriage...

is a life long commitment...



marriage needs a lot of tolerance...
not quite sure if i'm ready yet...
not quite sure if he's the one...

Friday, July 8, 2011

make a donation =)

pls show support to wenhan who's shaving for a good cause!


i pray for good health & speedy recovery for sm's mum & ab's dad

welcoming shan's baby boy who's born today!

hmmm...realise i've stepped into another phase of life
less time on party, more time for family =)

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

now it's radiotherapy

its bad news again :(

de cancer cells r moving...& latest is some spots were found in her brain
today's chemo was suddenly changed to radio nex tues...
& she wld need to go for 5 consecutive radio b4 chemo
all de postponement & delay in treatment is worrying me
god, can i have some good news?

wonder if my nex career move is wise?
wonder if my 1st car purchase is wise?

pls shed me some light...

Sunday, June 26, 2011

our new 'asset'

we finally got a golf tsi 1.2 white after months of car shopping! =)
gotta admit that we both fell for it at first sight...even thou de price is abit steep
hmmm...guess i hav to cut dn my entertainment so tat i can save enuf
time to change to healthy & cheap hangouts like exercise & beaches now!


my mama is due for her 1st chemo nex week...
hope de car comes in handy to bring her ard

i pray for her good health
i pray that she recovers quickly n we can enjoy a family trip soon
i pray for her happiness


Thursday, June 9, 2011

it feels like a nightmare...

i've been visiting de hospital lately...life really hasn't been as sunny as before.

while i welcome my godson lucas and was overjoyed 2 weeks ago (26/5), this week i have to brave myself with news that my mama is down with breast cancer. 

when i first heard the news over the phone (6/6), i keep asking myself if i'm having a nightmare (in my head: someone, pls slap me to wake me up, pls). seriously, i wish i wasn't in reality.

while i pick myself up, i started to read up online about the illness, esp when my elder siblings are not in town. i told myself to stay strong, take good care of my mum, and ensure my family copes well with the sudden news.

these are good cancer foods:
1) Tomatoes
2) Blueberries
3) Red cabbage, red beets
4) Spinach **
5) Garlic **
6) Whole wheat
7) Oranges
8) Strawberries
9) Beans (esp soya beans) **
10) Olive oil **
** esp for breast cancer

i also have to encourage my mum to take high fiber foods... fresh fruits, vegetables and whole grains (bread, flour, rice, dark brown sugar), and avoid salt. she has to stay physically active and maintain healthy weight to build her immunity.

i'm planning to get iPad 2 for her to play games, and e-cigarettes to help her cut down smoking and eventually quit someday.
 
having read tuesdays with morrie, i learn to cherish every moment with my beloved mum now. what's important is not how long more she can or will live, but how happy she can be in the days ahead. understand that the treatment period will be the most demoralising period for a cancer patient. its high time for me to spend more time with her and my family. 

i'm thankful now that i'm not selected for the US trip. perhaps this is what was planned for me.
 
frenz, pls send your parents for regular checkups (if they are above 50 years old), as certain illness are difficult to detect. force them if you really need to. apparently breast cancer affects 1 in 17 women in singapore. early detection is often less complicated and easier to cure.

thank you all who have asked and cared for me in one way or another. i will take good care of myself. if you would like to help me, do share with me anything i should take note of.

here are some useful reads:





Saturday, May 7, 2011

falling sick

it's been a long time since i fell so sick... tis time down wif running nose & persistent cough for 3 weeks... suspected nasal allergy & sinus infection...my weight dropped from 43 to 41kg, my lowest since teenage days...almost fainted in de bath last week cos of my low blood pressure... hope to recover fully soon, and to start my usual hang outs wif my frens & loved ones...& hav my weekly swims..getting tired of takin medicine :(

sorry peeps if i'm unable to join u lately for chill out & boozing...  my mama has forbidden my late nites & wil forbid further in months to come... but i know she jus cares for my health...

(kinda miss him takin me to de doc, cookin porridge for me, makin me take my medicine, being there for me)

amidst de GE fever, i'm deprived of being able to cast my vote & influence my future, as i'm in de walkover zone. but i certainly hope my country can get betta... issues which are irritating me as a S'porean:

1) Housing woes: being single, i cant own a HDB, & no matter how hard i work, i alone wun b able to afford de 20% downpayment for private (close to $200,000)...even if i get a HDB resale when im 35, i have to work my entire life in order to service de loan... my CPF will b wiped out, which ultimately affect my retirement savings.. my life would then revolve around working for a house... if i wanna my cash back, i wld hav to migrate...Is this living?! (N there r plans to push back retirement age...gosh how old do we have to work?!)

2) High salaried M: upsets me tat they are earning million dollar salaries, funded by taxpayers...de amt can be pumped for better welfare for the poor, better healthcare at lower cost!?

3) GST: if ever GST needs to be raised for govt revenue, tax shd b on luxury goods only...for income equality i.e. rich shd pay more!

4) Singaporeans: we shd favour sporeans for our greater contributions...many foreigners r enjoyin & reaping de sows our grandparents & we hav seeded...N we locals shd not embrace every bloody ang moh we see on de streets! what hav dey done for our country?

5) Overcrowding buses & MRT: i hav nvr tot of buying a car (which i feel is a liability) but de long waiting time for bus & havin to squeeze wif ah tiongs & blangs hav made me think otherwise! ownin a new car now is simply a waste of my hard earned $$ (btw who benefits when COE $$ goes up?)

6) GLCs = legitimate co*ruption?

All i ask for is a comfy home and happy living wif my loved ones. Having to juggle my work now is oredi challenging...cant imagine if one day i have to start a family & have to handle kids...

Where have our hard earned $$ gone? Are we being exploited? I wonder wonder wonder...

Monday, April 4, 2011

just for laughs on monday blues

Two Italian men and a lady stranded on a desert island;

- The two fought and one KILLED the other to have the lady.



Two American men and a lady stranded on a desert island;

- They both had the lady TOGETHER.



Two French men and a lady stranded on a desert island;

- They killed the lady to have EACH OTHER.



Two Indonesian men and a lady stranded on a desert island;

- The first man claimed that island is independent and took the lady as his advisor.

- The second man swam to another island to search for jobs.



Two Thai men and a lady stranded on a desert island;

- The first man rented the lady to the second man for 2 baht a night.



Two Filipino men and a lady stranded on a desert island;

- The first man kidnapped the lady and asked for ransom from the other man.



Two Malaysian men and a lady stranded on a desert island;

- The lady ACCUSED the first man of sodomizing the other because she was rejected by both.



Two Singaporean men and a lady stranded on a desert island;

- The two men are still waiting for instructions from the GOVERNMENT on how to proceed.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

no more US

haiz my dream of gg US to work is smashed le...strong contender last min...sorry peeps no bunk in for ur hol plans...

am now in a loss...where else can i post to?

oh ya baby, when wil my trip come true to help me recover fr my loss?

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

my valentine

me & my valentine spent our day @ east & west coast
we enjoyed hamming by de coast...

itz my first time receiving fresh flowers during valentine's (really)!
itz his first time buying flowers for valentine's
(he has no choice, he knows i love flowers haha)
six means i love and i miss you ;)

he planned the surprise for me
i planned a bigger surprise for him
he was grinning de whole nite
i was delighted too

"many can catch my eyes, but only one can catch my heart"
he completely stole mine

Thursday, February 10, 2011

timmy rOcks!

hey buddies, hop on to Wala Wala Cafe @ Holland V & join me for a cool mid-week break on Wed nights... de Happy Hours 1for1 housepour liquor and beer from 8-9pm ($19 for 2 mugs of erdinger) is cheaply nice, esp when u can hold de order thru de nite! My fave live band TIMMY starts at around 9.30pm, half an hour each session for 3 sessions...Now de lead singer ngak wil start singing solo at around 8pm to entertain early birds (like me & frens) who wanna enjoy de 1for1 drinks.. U can let ur hair down with any attire, berms and slippers! & if u r high enuf, jus sabo ur kaki on stage to dance or sing wif ngak! trust me, he makes us gals gasp! ;P

Here's de latest band line-up:
Sun - EIC band (Jack & Rai pop rock) **
Mon - (will find out)
Tues - tabula (rock) **
Wed - Timmy (Ngak & Clement rock) ***
Thur - UnXpected (super rock not my cuppa tea)
Fri - the cOmmon people (pop rock) *
Sat - Shirlyn (super rOck)

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

pattaya pattaya

pattaya... is really a red light district filled with nite life along the streets... as i strolled & observed, i can only feel pathetic towards de thai gals who have to give up their life for a living... old ang mohs holdin young thai gals is a common scene... thai gals touting for ang mohs as they past by their shops is common too... every massage parlour looks sleazy from de outside & almost every guy wld expect 'special' service when they step in (i had a hard time trying to find a decent one to enjoy my thai massage..had my legs all bruised during my last foot massage)...certainly not de best place for thai massage!

here's a glimpse of pattaya & itz fame song


nonetheless, i still enjoy de carefree walk & tan & jetski along pattaya beach.. had sandfly  bites on my legs thou :(

& travelling ard on our own bike @ 200 baht rental per day.. haha i managed to try riding awhile on my own!!
sea view from pattaya hill resort balcony
de resort accom package is not bad a deal too... S$110 for 3 nites for 4 pax (https://www.truepurpletravel.com/promotions.html)

& not to forget de cheap buys!! & wonderfully tasteful roadside foods!

pattaya: perhaps a paradise for lonely singles!
my next thailand stop: chiang mai?
;D

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

rainy sunday

30.01.2011

it rained de whole of this sunday...n itz a day tat makes history!

=D

seriOus stuff

OP-ED COLUMNIST


Serious in Singapore

By THOMAS L. FRIEDMAN

Published: January 29, 2011

Singapore


Josh Haner/The New York Times

Thomas L. Friedman



I am in the Gan Eng Seng Primary School in a middle-class neighborhood of Singapore, and the principal, A. W. Ai Ling, has me visiting a fifth-grade science class. All the 11-year-old boys and girls are wearing junior white lab coats with their names on them. Outside in the hall, yellow police tape has blocked off a “crime scene” and lying on a floor, bloodied, is a fake body that has been murdered. The class is learning about DNA through the use of fingerprints, and their science teacher has turned the students into little C.S.I. detectives. They have to collect fingerprints from the scene and then break them down.

I missed that DNA lesson when I was in fifth grade. When I asked the principal whether this was part of the national curriculum, she said no. She just had a great science teacher, she said, and was aware that Singapore was making a big push to expand its biotech industries and thought it would be good to push her students in the same direction early. A couple of them checked my fingerprints. I was innocent — but impressed.

This was just an average public school, but the principal had made her own connections between “what world am I living in,” “where is my country trying to go in that world” and, therefore, “what should I teach in fifth-grade science.”

I was struck because that kind of linkage is so often missing in U.S. politics today. Republicans favor deep cuts in government spending, while so far exempting Medicare, Social Security and the defense budget. Not only is that not realistic, but it basically says that our nation’s priorities should be to fund retirement homes for older people rather than better schools for younger people and that we should build new schools in Afghanistan before Alabama.

President Obama just laid out a smart and compelling vision of where our priorities should be. But he did not spell out how and where we will have to both cut and invest — really intelligently and at a large scale — to deliver on his vision.

Singapore is tiny and by no means a U.S.-style democracy. Yet, like America, it has a multiethnic population — Chinese, Indian and Malay — with a big working class. It has no natural resources and even has to import sand for building. But today its per capita income is just below U.S. levels, built with high-end manufacturing, services and exports. The country’s economy grew last year at 14.7 percent, led by biomedical exports. How?

If Singapore has one thing to teach America, it is about taking governing seriously, relentlessly asking: What world are we living in and how do we adapt to thrive. “We’re like someone living in a hut without any insulation,” explained Tan Kong Yam, an economist. “We feel every change in the wind or the temperature and have to adapt. You Americans are still living in a brick house with central heating and don’t have to be so responsive.” And we have not been.

Singapore probably has the freest market in the world; it doesn’t believe in import tariffs, minimum wages or unemployment insurance. But it believes regulators need to make sure markets work properly — because they can’t on their own — and it subsidizes homeownership and education to give everyone a foundation to become self-reliant. Singapore copied the German model that strives to put everyone who graduates from high school on a track for higher education, but only about 40 percent go to universities. Others are tracked to polytechnics or vocational institutes, so the vast majority graduate with the skills to get a job, whether it be as a plumber or a scientist.

Explained Ravi Menon, the Permanent Secretary of Singapore’s Ministry of Trade and Industry: “The two ‘isms’ that perhaps best describe Singapore’s approach are: pragmatism — an emphasis on what works in practice rather than abstract theory; and eclecticism — a willingness to adapt to the local context best practices from around the world.”

It is a sophisticated mix of radical free-market and nanny state that requires sophisticated policy makers to implement, which is why politics here is not treated as sports or entertainment. Top bureaucrats and cabinet ministers have their pay linked to top private sector wages, so most make well over $1 million a year, and their bonuses are tied to the country’s annual G.D.P. growth rate. It means the government can attract high-quality professionals and corruption is low.

America never would or should copy Singapore’s less-than-free politics. But Singapore has something to teach us about “attitude” — about taking governing seriously and thinking strategically. We used to do that and must again because our little brick house with central heating is not going to be resistant to the storms much longer.

“There is real puzzlement here about America today,” said Kishore Mahbubani, dean of the Lee Kuan Yew School of Public Policy, “because we learned all about what it takes to build a well-functioning society from you. Many of our top officials are graduates of the Kennedy School at Harvard. They just came back home and applied its lessons vigorously.”

A version of this op-ed appeared in print on January 30, 2011, on page WK8 of the New York edition.

(de great teacher is none other than my sis! who complains tat she kana arrow by her boss for a last min dropby visit by a fame columnist! she's so proud for being featured as de columnist oso visited hwa chong but didnt mention dem...i told her cos a middle class school wld fit in his article...dun tink too much haha!)

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

=P

long time since im overjoyed by news that made me jump off my seat!! hope im gonna be mum soon!

diminishing hopes of my dreams to be independent & work on a foreign land... like wat peg says, perhaps there's another plan for me... i needa be ard for de kid?!

so happy for her!

but she deserves a smack on her ass for bluffing me on her balloon-ing figure @_@ rite, min?

(n bingo! i'm a mum soon! yippee!!)