another chapter?

perhaps he's right.. distance ahead.. wil god bless this journey?

mum, i stil miss u.. your dying moments keep flashing vividly in my mind...pls guide me thru this difficult time..

travel wif love

I was looking thru my mum's passport... realized that she's only been to few countries...hongkong, china, thailand, Indonesia n Malaysia...wif my dad n relatives n frens... I'm a travel fan...been many places...yet I've not really travelled wif my mum...only once to a famosa abt 10 years ago... "Mummy, I really love you." I finally took de courage to tell her tonite.. but she can't respond... Losing my mum so soon is so unexpected...it's been a year n I'm still trying to cope wif de truth...

my bday wish

This year has not been smooth, so I decided to hav a simple BBQ wif my family n frens, hoping that it wil b a good fresh start for the year ahead! And to settle my promo treat all at one go (ha eat too many of others now it's payback time)... Anyway this promo is nothing really worth celebrating as its jus a time norm i.e. u get promoted when yr time is due as long as u din make unforgivable mistake... I hope to get a black blink watch to wear to work (hee i have hinted him)...my other wishlist is to get a olyumpus red vintage camera n pink clam shell non camera phone or a pink samsung s3 (heard lotsa good comments abt it)...it wld b great if I can a big bouquet of colourful tulips to brighten my day!

mum

http://thenewageparents.com/sharings-of-a-single-father/

妈妈是伟大的...de tot of losing her soon saddens me...realise tat mama has been my pillar of support all these while...she has been there for me whenever I needed her... But I wasn't around for her when she needed me most... due to WORK (so ironic)... I missed my chance of chatting with her as her speech is v slurred now... I miss her warm home cooked food... I miss her advice on my love life... I miss her nags now...

"But mummy, I am starting to forget your face". My heart wrenched when I read this. The boy should be having a hard time growing up. I'm glad my mama is there for me, growing up with me.

happiness is relative

I know I won't be happy. But I promise I'll try. Cos I will b unhappier to let go.

I need a good break

Its another low. Realize I ain't good at communicating with my mum. Even though shes very sick now. Feelings are infectious. When one is down, everyone is down. I'm feeling frustrated. Cant see any happy face in de family. Sometimes, I really feel bad hoping that I have my personal space soon. Life is difficult now. I hope it will be over soon. Mama, my wish is for u to recover soon. And see u smile again.

selling extra lady gaga tickets 28 may

I have 2 extra lady gaga concert tix held at Singapore indoor stadium on 28 May 2012. $158 category. To be sold as a pair (seated toge). Bought by error! Interested pls drop a message or call me! Or you can email me your best offer at roche0987@yahoo.com.

Min, although we had a hard time getting de tix, it's fun! Really fr excitement 2 disappointment 2 relief :)

thoughts before de new year...

My dream since I was younger:

To hold a yacht wedding at 28
To design my own house by 30
To carry my first boy by 31
To have 3 lovely kids before 35

Age and reality kicked in last night.
Where am I now?

My dream is simple. Yet difficult to realise. To be truthful, I haven't been happy lately. Work, family, relationship, health ain't too good. Did I make the wrong choices again? Is everything worth it?

I long for carefree days. Somewhat like karen. I wanna travel again. 2012. I pray for a much better year. No new year resolutions as usual. And ya, no major life decisions yet.

Peg, u help fulfil half my dream...I have my chubby lovable godson this year at least. :)

beautiful memories =)

here's a sneak peep at my xmas gifts for de gals ;)

 

tiring

Getting tired fr overtime work everyday... Hope life gets better soon...

Wish I can migrate someday

canon photo printer

yeah i jus redeemed a compact canon photo printer from amex!!



i can use it to print my godson's pix

hope de fotos can brighten his mummy's life!

marriage...

is a life long commitment...

marriage needs a lot of tolerance...

not quite sure if i'm ready yet...

not quite sure if he's the one...

make a donation =)

pls show support to wenhan who's shaving for a good cause!

http://www.hairforhope.org.sg/index.php?/shavee/idetails/789

i pray for good health & speedy recovery for sm's mum & ab's dad

welcoming shan's baby boy who's born today!

hmmm...realise i've stepped into another phase of life

less time on party, more time for family =)

now it's radiotherapy

its bad news again :(

de cancer cells r moving...& latest is some spots were found in her brain

today's chemo was suddenly changed to radio nex tues...

& she wld need to go for 5 consecutive radio b4 chemo

all de postponement & delay in treatment is worrying me

god, can i have some good news?

wonder if my nex career move is wise?

wonder if my 1st car purchase is wise?

pls shed me some light...

our new 'asset'

we finally got a golf tsi 1.2 white after months of car shopping! =)

gotta admit that we both fell for it at first sight...even thou de price is abit steep

hmmm...guess i hav to cut dn my entertainment so tat i can save enuf

time to change to healthy & cheap hangouts like exercise & beaches now!

my mama is due for her 1st chemo nex week...

hope de car comes in handy to bring her ard

i pray for her good health

i pray that she recovers quickly n we can enjoy a family trip soon

i pray for her happiness



it feels like a nightmare...

i've been visiting de hospital lately...life really hasn't been as sunny as before.

while i welcome my godson lucas and was overjoyed 2 weeks ago (26/5), this week i have to brave myself with news that my mama is down with breast cancer. 

when i first heard the news over the phone (6/6), i keep asking myself if i'm having a nightmare (in my head: someone, pls slap me to wake me up, pls). seriously, i wish i wasn't in reality.

while i pick myself up, i started to read up online about the illness, esp when my elder siblings are not in town. i told myself to stay strong, take good care of my mum, and ensure my family copes well with the sudden news.

these are good cancer foods:

1) Tomatoes

2) Blueberries

3) Red cabbage, red beets

4) Spinach **

5) Garlic **

6) Whole wheat

7) Oranges

8) Strawberries

9) Beans (esp soya beans) **

10) Olive oil **

** esp for breast cancer

i also have to encourage my mum to take high fiber foods... fresh fruits, vegetables and whole grains (bread, flour, rice, dark brown sugar), and avoid salt. she has to stay physically active and maintain healthy weight to build her immunity.

i'm planning to get iPad 2 for her to play games, and e-cigarettes to help her cut down smoking and eventually quit someday.

 

having read tuesdays with morrie, i learn to cherish every moment with my beloved mum now. what's important is not how long more she can or will live, but how happy she can be in the days ahead. understand that the treatment period will be the most demoralising period for a cancer patient. its high time for me to spend more time with her and my family. 

i'm thankful now that i'm not selected for the US trip. perhaps this is what was planned for me.

 

frenz, pls send your parents for regular checkups (if they are above 50 years old), as certain illness are difficult to detect. force them if you really need to. apparently breast cancer affects 1 in 17 women in singapore. early detection is often less complicated and easier to cure.

thank you all who have asked and cared for me in one way or another. i will take good care of myself. if you would like to help me, do share with me anything i should take note of.

here are some useful reads:

http://www.hpb.gov.sg/diseases/article.aspx?id=778

http://www.breastcanceranswers.net/articles/What-are-the-different-breast-cancer-stages.html

http://www.breastcanceranswers.net/articles/What-is-the-breast-cancer-survival-rate.html

http://www.truehealth.org/ahealt10.html

http://www.merckmanuals.com/home/sec22/ch251/ch251f.html

falling sick

it's been a long time since i fell so sick... tis time down wif running nose & persistent cough for 3 weeks... suspected nasal allergy & sinus infection...my weight dropped from 43 to 41kg, my lowest since teenage days...almost fainted in de bath last week cos of my low blood pressure... hope to recover fully soon, and to start my usual hang outs wif my frens & loved ones...& hav my weekly swims..getting tired of takin medicine :(

sorry peeps if i'm unable to join u lately for chill out & boozing...  my mama has forbidden my late nites & wil forbid further in months to come... but i know she jus cares for my health...

(kinda miss him takin me to de doc, cookin porridge for me, makin me take my medicine, being there for me)

amidst de GE fever, i'm deprived of being able to cast my vote & influence my future, as i'm in de walkover zone. but i certainly hope my country can get betta... issues which are irritating me as a S'porean:

1) Housing woes: being single, i cant own a HDB, & no matter how hard i work, i alone wun b able to afford de 20% downpayment for private (close to $200,000)...even if i get a HDB resale when im 35, i have to work my entire life in order to service de loan... my CPF will b wiped out, which ultimately affect my retirement savings.. my life would then revolve around working for a house... if i wanna my cash back, i wld hav to migrate...Is this living?! (N there r plans to push back retirement age...gosh how old do we have to work?!)

2) High salaried M: upsets me tat they are earning million dollar salaries, funded by taxpayers...de amt can be pumped for better welfare for the poor, better healthcare at lower cost!?

3) GST: if ever GST needs to be raised for govt revenue, tax shd b on luxury goods only...for income equality i.e. rich shd pay more!

4) Singaporeans: we shd favour sporeans for our greater contributions...many foreigners r enjoyin & reaping de sows our grandparents & we hav seeded...N we locals shd not embrace every bloody ang moh we see on de streets! what hav dey done for our country?

5) Overcrowding buses & MRT: i hav nvr tot of buying a car (which i feel is a liability) but de long waiting time for bus & havin to squeeze wif ah tiongs & blangs hav made me think otherwise! ownin a new car now is simply a waste of my hard earned $$ (btw who benefits when COE $$ goes up?)

6) GLCs = legitimate co*ruption?

All i ask for is a comfy home and happy living wif my loved ones. Having to juggle my work now is oredi challenging...cant imagine if one day i have to start a family & have to handle kids...

Where have our hard earned $$ gone? Are we being exploited? I wonder wonder wonder...

no more US

haiz my dream of gg US to work is smashed le...strong contender last min...sorry peeps no bunk in for ur hol plans...

am now in a loss...where else can i post to?

oh ya baby, when wil my trip come true to help me recover fr my loss?

my valentine

me & my valentine spent our day @ east & west coast

we enjoyed hamming by de coast...

itz my first time receiving fresh flowers during valentine's (really)!

itz his first time buying flowers for valentine's

(he has no choice, he knows i love flowers haha)

six means i love and i miss you ;)

he planned the surprise for me

i planned a bigger surprise for him

he was grinning de whole nite

i was delighted too

"many can catch my eyes, but only one can catch my heart"

he completely stole mine

timmy rOcks!

hey buddies, hop on to Wala Wala Cafe @ Holland V & join me for a cool mid-week break on Wed nights... de Happy Hours 1for1 housepour liquor and beer from 8-9pm ($19 for 2 mugs of erdinger) is cheaply nice, esp when u can hold de order thru de nite! My fave live band TIMMY starts at around 9.30pm, half an hour each session for 3 sessions...Now de lead singer ngak wil start singing solo at around 8pm to entertain early birds (like me & frens) who wanna enjoy de 1for1 drinks.. U can let ur hair down with any attire, berms and slippers! & if u r high enuf, jus sabo ur kaki on stage to dance or sing wif ngak! trust me, he makes us gals gasp! ;P

Here's de latest band line-up:

Sun - EIC band (Jack & Rai pop rock) **

Mon - (will find out)

Tues - tabula (rock) **

Wed - Timmy (Ngak & Clement rock) ***

Thur - UnXpected (super rock not my cuppa tea)

Fri - the cOmmon people (pop rock) *

Sat - Shirlyn (super rOck)